Sunday, January 24, 2010

The iPod is an an Amazing thing !

I love the touchscreen technology and I love the fact that they keep finishing
my words for me. I am sure that they can't be right all the time but amazingly it
has not been wrong even once. I love it.
I saw three idiots today. It's pretty good entertainment. aamir khan is as good as ever. I almost always like his films. And now I am tired of typing with one finger. so good night and good clooney.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Saturday, January 02, 2010

the unbearable loss of anger

there was a time when i was about 12 or 13 when i would lose my temper terribly frequently. Those days are gone. Now I lose my temper very very rarely. My temper has not disappeared. It has taken the form of mild irritation wih the world in general. I'm wary of people and their biases, opinions and expectations.
May be I don't understand them very well.

People have an image of how other people should be and this has nothing to do with the way they themselves are in their own life. This leads to free advice and this causes a burning anger within me and I want to slap, scream and kick all at the same time.I flew into a rage yesterday over something like this after the longest time. I yelled and screamed at someone and if my darling husband hadn't come to my side and flown into a rage himself at this person, I might have slapped and kicked. In any case my darling husband also screamed and was ready to punch an kick himself so I calmed down and promptly ended up confused because I had forgotten how angry I could become given the 'right' stimulus.

I was quite surprised to see anshuman this angry. He almost never loses his temper. In any case I wish people would leave me well alone. I don't know if I was always a loner or circumstances turned me into one, the fact is that I am one. I like being a loner. I like eating alone, reading alone, having tea by myself, listening to the radio alone, riding the train alone, just being, just being alone. I am comfortable. Why do other people have to walk into my space and then get uncomfortable and then cause me to be uncomfortable.

Somewhere deep within my being I'm angry as hell. Honestly I prefer my dog to most people.

Friday, January 01, 2010

and so it begins

went for a party last night..woke up in the afternoon today..the day is quiet almost serene...there's no one outside...anshuman sleeps...ninna sleeps...I'm having tea and looking out of my window at the trees swaying ever so gently...the sun is hiding behind the clouds...just spotted two little children a girl and a boy walking hand in hand...there's no one playing basketball in the court...i feel as though I'm the only one awake this afternoon...a seaplane flies overhead...birds swim across my window...another year has gone by...another one begins...and so it begins