Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Summertime sadness

Sadness seems to be a seasonal phenomenon I think. I feel especially sad when the summer comes sauntering in and kicks the winter out of the city. The very sun that I love so much shines mercilessly and I begin spending more and more time within four walls. I begin looking forward to the evenings which are still relatively cool. I wish sometimes that I lived in a place where the weather never changed and at the same time I do love this city so much that I would never want to move. My plant is showing signs of dying. I have no defense.  I have not looked after it for the past couple of months and it's leaves have become yellow and it is dying and making me even sadder. My astrologer friend has not updated her blog today so I can't even read the predictions and simply blame it on the planetary positions. Not that I believe so much in planetary movements.

This day started with such a sad dream that I'm somehow unable to detach myself from it as I usually do. The feeling of having lost something is hanging over this day like the blazing sun. Yes a blazing sun should be a good thing but sometimes it's not. Sometimes it makes you close your eyes and turn away. It makes you wish for the night and the soothing moon.

Summertime sadness is a song by Lana Del rey. Such a sad sad song... it's the theme for today. Not one of my favourites but here it is anyway...

Summertime sadness by Lana del Rey

Think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning skies
Later's better than never
Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive, drive


Gazal said...

wonderfully written...
"Sadness you are my only eternal friend"

parul gahlot said...

Thanks Gazal